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(May 02, 2024)
My early years were a labyrinth of instability and fear. Born into a family torn apart by divorce and my mother's struggles with alcoholism and violence, I found myself uprooted and relocated to Albuquerque, New Mexico. Raised primarily by my grandparents, my mother's absence and subsequent return ushered in a tumultuous period marked by deceit and physical abuse.
Seeking Solace and Struggling with Addiction:
At 16, I broke away from the chaos, seeking emancipation and refuge with my grandmother. But the void left by family turmoil drew me into the arms of addiction—to oxycontin and alcohol, and to a life of superficial indulgence in Hollywood's dazzling facade.
A Friend's Untimely Departure and the Unveiling of DMT:
Amidst this whirlwind, a childhood friend remained a constant in my life, offering support and occasional nudges towards deeper understanding. His tragic suicide left me grappling with profound loss. It was during this time of emotional upheaval and literal homelessness that I was introduced to DMT—a catalyst for profound introspection and awakening.
The Journey with DMT:
Seated in my friend's backyard, surrounded by ceremonial items, I took my first inhalation of DMT. As the world around me dissolved into geometric fractals, I was catapulted into an alternate reality—a realm pulsating with vibrant energy and inhabited by ethereal beings.
Encountering the Divine 'Other':
In this transcendent state, I encountered a floating, smiling face—a benevolent, feminine entity of blue light. Without words, she reassured me that all would be well, urging me to release my earthly worries. It was a moment of profound revelation, teaching me that my mundane concerns paled in comparison to the cosmic tapestry unfolding before me.
Integration and Continued Exploration:
Since that transformative experience, I've continued my journey with DMT, delving deeper into realms that defy conventional understanding. Each encounter brings new insights and challenges, urging me to expand my perception of reality and embrace the mysteries of existence.
The Unveiling of 'Others':
These experiences have laid the groundwork for ongoing exploration. I'm drawn to unraveling the nature of these 'Others'—observers or entities that inhabit the spaces beyond our immediate comprehension. They beckon me towards deeper inquiry and a profound reevaluation of my place in the universe.
Conclusion:
In hindsight, my tumultuous upbringing and subsequent encounters with DMT have shaped a path of resilience and relentless curiosity. I've come to appreciate the transformative potential of inner exploration and the boundless mysteries that await beyond the threshold of ordinary perception.
Stay Kind, Question Everything.
~ Stellae Ambulator
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